Thursday, December 24, 2009

Edd


Damn you both Ed and Eddy. Why did I ever think working with you two would actually benefit with my life. You both made me look like a fucking damn fool for the last time . I always wonder why I spent that afternoon making people believe that I was going to dye when I actually found out it was just a joke to Ed and Eddy. Damn I made my self look like a fool for the last time. Cause as I sit alone in my room in the dark cutting my self is the only way I could ever face my self in the end of the day. Fuck why the hell did I reduce to cutting my self when I had such a good life before this happened. I could have been a professional scientist and changed this damn retched world like they would ever give a damn in the end anyways. Now I screwed up big time cause i cut way to damn deep and my room has a red puddle and me as live bait for any damn cannibal that is on the hunt for some savoring fresh meat. But all is said and done cause as I lay in my coffin I can actually look back on my life and actually realize that my life just sucked. To bad I made my real friends sad and somehow made Ed and Eddy mad. Well the jokes on them cause they can spend their whole life on useless schemes while I sleep in peace.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Stripper


Damn I can't fall asleep in my coffin tonight. Cause seeing that young and innocent girl just makes me infuriated. I ponder this question that never escapes my mind. I can't stop wondering where is her father at this damn scary moment in her life. I just couldn't stand to hear that the drunk actually believed that his daughter was studying at her friends house. It's a damn shame what she has to learn as she strips just to see a lower point in her life. She went to school everyday trying to see if someone would help her sop this risky lifestyle but alas no one ever did help the girl. To bad no one gave her the time of day to begin with. I can tell she hates how her life is at the moment. Cause there isn't any moment in the day when she is alone she doesn't cry a river of pain. We both know that she really isn't paying for her tuition at all. Now her shift is now done and she wonders if she has the urge to stop stripping. It's a shame that she has to cry for hours and hours to come just so she can feel a little bit better about her life. Even though she knows her life is now never going to be the same for as long as she lives. I finally figure out something her mom died and she has lot all of her faith to care about her self. Well at least there is a bright side to all of this she never took her own life to make all of her pain go away.

Death




Damn look at all of those fucking bastards. Crying and sobbing like you actually cared about that bitch that died. I know not one of you actually gave a rats ass about my mom . Not even for an inch of your damn lives. Well don't feel sorry cause I never gave a damn about them either and I can sleep with the fact of all of you knowing that. It's a damn shame I have to be in a room full of hypocrites. To bad that none of you actually grew a pair. Since her death cause I'm the only one with the balls to actually dress in all red and feel no damn remorse for what I have done. While the rest of you bitches decide to listen to god and not your conscience and have the fucking urge to dress in all black. Trust me I'm not complaining cause your day will finally have your day to show your true colors. Now seriously look at your selves and you'll see that all the sins that you have acted upon are finally gonna bite you all in your sorry asses. But look on the bright side of all of this .Once I'm done talking at this eulogy all of you will finally die a peaceful death cause I'll be the only one laughing in the end of all of this.

Sick


Fuck you bitch with all of those damn lies that you just love to tell. Now let me fucking set the record straight like you even give a damn. I don't smoke nor do I condone in doing drugs. Bitch I just love to zone out of my retched life. Now I'm walking across town and seeing all of you damn happy bastards. Frolicking with some damn joy like the world is a happy place to actually live in. Before all of you damn bitches start saying shit about me that don't even add up save your damn breath cause I herd it all before. Now if you don't mind let me just run home and slam my bedroom door shut so I can finally escape from reality and let my subconscious take control of what I need to indulge in my life. You see I don't give a damn what you fucking have to say cause your just wasting some precious air that you will need in the next few years of your life. Just say it cause that's the only way you can actually live with your self right. Now please stop me if I caught you off guard. Drop dead and don't even bother me with your pointless lives again cause the next time you do I'm going to laugh as i blow your fucking brains out.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Love


Frost once said "Nothing Gold Could Stay". Apparently he was wrong cause this girl has a special coat of gold hat will never crack. People were always telling me useless crap like she wasn't the one for me. But since I'm a teen I'm never going to listen to all that bull. Well it's a good thing I never listened to all of those fools cause she is the best thing that ever happened to me. Th best part out of all of this was that I wasn't looking with my eyes but only with my heart. Somehow this girl captivated my heart and made it sky rocket all the way to cloud 9. It's funny cause she took my anger and exchanged it for endless joy and I wouldn't have it any other way. Every were I go it's like she got me hypnotized caused she's all that I see and I really cant stop thinking about her. Wayne once said I feel like dying but ever since I met her I feel like dying will have to wait when she leaves my life for good.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Chuckie Finster


Damn I've spent eleven years being afraid of everything around me. I had friends that were always on the verge for a new adventure. To bad I wasn't cause clowns scared the living shit out of me and don't even get me started with the dark. Damn I hate how my life has turned up. Cause I just don't know how I got surrounded by people that were happy even when they were sad. Sucks to be me cause apparently I'm the depressed one. It's like trying to find Waldo in a dark place and somehow you can see me. Do you know how it feels like to live a damn lie just so you can make everyone that loves you happy. Well trust me I do. But when you try to tell someone they just don't care. Like you're crying wolf and even when they show up the first two times they won't even open their eyes. So you cry wolf some more and they just ignore you like you're just a little pest. But you really don't care cause they will finally see the truth when I'm laying in that damn coffin. Won't you now seriously see whats wrong with me or will you only look with your eyes. Cause If you only look with your eyes you're dead off . What you really need to look with is your heart that is if you actually have one and I seriously doubt that you do. now your crying and wondering why this happened to ruin your good life but I just don't care. Cause the wolf came in the woods a lot and you were to stupid to actually see him. Like you actually cared, cause if you did you wouldn't let my shadow counsel my soul and make me bitter and depressed. So for now I'm going to leave you here to cry your fake tears cause karma is a fucking bitch you damn bastard. Finally this rugrat is out of existence hope the rest realize what life has to offer them. Peace out Malcolm peace!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Straight Jacket

Inject, inject, inject, you mutha fucking bitch like it will even work. I think I need some more. I'm kicking and screaming like im a fucking rape victim. Damn spent most of my life bein a fucking crazy psycopath and I never thought that one day in my life Iwould ever go to a crazy house. I see all these bastars seriously trying to drugme up and no I'm higher than a crackhead. Now I broke a damn promise to friend. All I can do is try to resist but nothing is happening because I'm now in a straight jacket.Now I feel like a damn bastard caue I wasn't abel to resist the temptation and now I can hardly breathe. It's funny how this all happened cause if I knew writing about my life would leave me to total destrustion. My eyes are clear and I can see all of those fucking haters that teamed up to put me in isolation. It' funny cause they closedtheir eyes for just a mere second and I pulled a fucking Hudini. Well afterall tat has happened I am actually happy and not mad because since I escaped that peace of shit I can finaly be crazier than ever and this time no one cause stop me. Cause it's no in trying tame a damn wild animal that never wants to change their ways.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

My Life




Born in 1993 with no care in the world. With no sympathy for those that I've always hated and tormented or just loved to hate. Filled with bloody rage and some points of grattitide which is very seldom for me to actually display. Graduated form Julliard and went to Los Angelous, California to presue a career in writing. My parents finally died leaving me happy wile my kid sister was brought in the hands of my loving and supportive older sister. Took the anger and turned it into blood sucking pure agony and started to draw and write like a fucking drug addict. Went to hollywood and instantly got a role in a horror film and became an instant sinsation. Making a gross income that surpassed both Donald Trump and Bill Gates. Ha! I dominated both those bastatds and donated half of all my money on The American Heart Association and spent the rest on useless crap like videogames and cars. Damn who ever knew I could waste so much after each paycheck that I got. Then finally my ever loving dark possessive side kicked in and I started to overdose and smoke kush just for the hell of it and my whole life went haywire since that mistake that I will never regret. I called all the people that I cared about and took my last breath and died in 2100. Yea you herd me overdosing took me that far suckers.


Peace suckas!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Jack Frost


It's the time for joy when December 25Th comes around the corner. Toys and Christmas bonuses ate coming ten fold. Little kids are getting ready for Santa Clause to deliver them toys and not coal. To bad this year is going to fucking change. Cause my good friend Jack Frost is gonna massacre you little punks with massive depression. It's just a damn shame to be born when Christmas is around the corner and all you've got is a damn cold heart. You see Jack isn't mad at all cause he ain't no fucking Scrooge. All that he wants is to make you all suffer for the cure that you have casted upon him. Damn never met a man that hates the laughter of little children. You see life is a bitch and a curse is nothing but a fucking whore that will never go away. To me being Jack Frost isn't a life goal it's a role that I'll be ready to obtain at anytime and at any place. I know that there isn't any time to look back cause now I've become Jack Frost. So every damn fucking Christmas that you celebrate you can be happy cause the both of us know that I wont. All that I know is that for me to be the most bad ass Jack Frost I need to be colder than the fucking Arctic tundra.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Dream

Many damn hours wasted sleeping but countless years slowly dying as you have a damn dream. Tick, tock time is slipping away as you hear the damn clock and your just running in that abandoned warehouse trying to find a way to escape. Spending countless hours sinking in to a dark sea as you have this dream wondering what I really means. This isn't a bad dream it's a fucking nightmare that you can never escape cause a damn dark force is concealing.You in this fucking sea. You hear many voices telling you here's your chance run while you still have a chance but you don't listen. You think that their going to trap you and then ambush you but your wrong their just trying to save you dumb ass. You finally listen but it's to late you start moving but it's not for the door your slowly sinking in quick sand and your trying to find a way out but you sink to a forbidden cave and scared to move. An hour passes by and you decide to run but somehow bump into a body that you never hoped to see again. It's me and I'm out for some fucking vengeance and I have no remorse to what happens next. This damn bastard though I was dead when he shot me in that cemetery and decided to runaway from this like a damn pussy but I decided that he was getting off easy. So I took this damn elixir that I found in hell and poured it into his drink. This kid is now trapped in this dream and will never wake up till he realizes what he did wrong. Time goes on as he runs and runs like hes in a damn marathon but he ain't getting off till he is fucking shot point blank in a fucking cemetery.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Damn

Damn I'm losing control my mind is roaming all over the place. Who ever knew that one girl could change my damn life cause I didn't. She has me blinded with her heart. To me she is Jasmine and I'm Genie and I'm finding it hard to fulfill her every wish. It's funny my friends don't like her but I can fucking care less cause she took my life and changed it for the best. Damn I don't know what I'd actually do without her. It's like if she were to die at this point I wouldn't have the desire to go on with my life. I know there are many girls in the world but I can't even see them cause my eyes won't let me. I can't believe it this damn girl stole my heart and she can keep it. This might seem crazy but if she were to harm anyone in my family I would support her like it was my mission in life. I don't know how this destiny crap work but now my life is full and I know I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. Some people need their cars and money to make them feel good about their selves but for her I would sell my soul and all my worldly possessions just so that I could be with her.
Damn I'm losing control my fucking mind is running around the damn place.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Lesly Who?


What started out as a perfect day would also be the most frightening day for Lesly would ever face. Sitting near a pool and kicking the damn water beneath my feet. As Lesly's foot slipped he was dragged to the bottom of the pool and never arose again. Lesly was only 3 years old . As years went on he began to sink deeper and deeper into a hole that would be impossible to escape from. While Lesly sat on the damn ground a dark force named Jean took over as the devil found his chance to kidnap an young and confused soul. As Jean grew up Lesly was quickly fading away. So Jean started to become angry and made every damn person in his family embarrassed to even know him cause each move that he made became devastation. It's funny how Jean got possessed on a drug called hatred and began to take every damn dose of the drug. While Jean overdosed with the hate Lesly was now becoming a thing of the past. Lesly wanted to kick back and escape from the hell that he was in but Jean wasn't having that . The only damn question for Lesly to ask is when will he ever be strong enough to rise from the fucking pool and take Jean down for the final count.

I feel like dying


Wake up wach morning and I just get pissed off at the world around me. Parents hate me, sister fucking dispires me, and I hve no damn reason to live in such a fucking hell hole. Each day brins me pain and all I wanna do is get my blade and cut my self like I'm fucking emo. I have no fucking damn desire to live and I hardly don't care what happens to those that despise me. Just hope that they die before I have a chance to kell them and laugh as their families feel the pain that they have brought to me . Ha like I have any remorce for those bastards anyways . Even though I might have a fucking synical laugh in the whole ordeal would still be feeling some pain because I am still living to see another damn day. Dark souls bad influences flow around me like I am their keeper and those influences trap me and never want me to have this damn curse called life that has been casted upon me. I wish things could go back to how things were before. Cause back in the day my life was so damn simple but I know that will never happen cause I'm just a damn bastard that will never feel joy for anything ever again foras long as I live.

Die Bitches Die

Do you know how it feel to have parents that don't even want you. Well I do cause my parents are bitches and they don't even classify as mutha fucking humans. If you were to meet my parents they would put on a show that you'd pay to see again. To bad once you all leave the act is getting very sour. My parents are fucking hypocrites and don't even give a flying rats ass about their damn children. Always threatening me to kick me out their damn house but don't even have the balls to follow though with their word. My dad thinks that he is running the show when I'm around but he's just scared that once he leaves I will rule the damn house like I'm fucking Castro. All that the bastard does is talk on his phone and meets up with his friends like he's winning a fucking prize and leaving his family like he don't give a damn. People always say that I should respect my mom cause she brought me to this damn world. But I feel like I shouldn't cause she don't give a damn bout me at all. Every time I start getting in trouble e defends my fucking dad like he's her son and makes me wonder what I really am to her. Damn it's funny how I have all these damn issues and my parents keep blaming it on my friends but their to damn blind to realize it's something else. I told them once and they will just phase my words out they think they gave me all that I wanted but their dead off. I hope they can just fucking drop dead and let me live my damn life. I don't give a damn as I go to their funeral in all red cause in the end of the day their old news. So hey can die and make their country proud cause I will be chill to see those damn curtains go down in flames as I laugh and never come back again.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Sleep


People always say that you need eight hours of sleep to be ready for the next day. It's funny cause if I go to sleep I'm bound to be screwed. I don't care if I get tired cause I just wanna be awake to make a few people mad at me. To me sleep ain't the type of friend that you really need cause sleeping is a fucking drug. And this drug can posion your damn mind and scare the living crap out of you. Think that I'm crazy right but just ponder on this for a minute. Every time that you go to sleep you are just drowning in your pain and you are just killing your self at the spot. So take those eight hours if you must but if you don't wake up your fears will finally get the best of you and you'll die for no damn reasion. This isn't "Down to Earth" cause if everyone that died got a second chance to redo their life you wouldn't even know were to start at all.Now don't balme me if you never wake up ever cause you fucking brought this on your self. Now you made your bed and you can now lie in it. Sleeping is a fucking drug that you overdose and if you don't know yourlimits you will never see another lite of day again.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Damn, Drake once said ' Baby you ma everythin you all I ever wanted" but with out you doing something is worthless. It's intresting how I've never felt like this about someone till I met you. Sure I've liken many girls but none of them can ever hold a candle to you. It's funny cause for nine years all of my emotions have disappeared. But once I met you they have somehow came back like they were sent to me like it would save me from all of my pain. Now every time I see you I feel like bing a bastard isn't even a decision that I should make caue you're the only person that I actually care about. Damn with out you I feel like I dont even deserve to write a damn word again. Like with out you there isnt any need to feel happy about anything at all. Most people say what I am feeling isnt something that I even know about at all but I say their wrong cause Im not listening with ym ears I just have the conviction to listion with only my heart. Even if you dont feel the same way I would risk my life just so yo could see another day to live. If you ever screwed up I'd be the one to always be there to make every thing right in this world even if it means dying just to protect you.

Hell is where my heart is

A friend once told me you're only weak unless you give up. It's interesting how one part of me have given up and might never see the day of light for a long time. At one point I've lived an easy going life but as time went on I transformed in to a dog not a man.Each day goes on with no hope for me to ever be at peace. Feeling like I have to put on a show so my friends will never know that I'm really depressed. Some how they can Seee through my illusion and found the real me. With all the pain that I had to overcome is finally soaring like eagles on cloud nine. The sad part of all of this crap is that my friends really didn't notice the big picture in this damn x-ray. Cause I'm actually trapped under the protection of the grim reaper .Ol' Grimmy is what I call my new guardian cause until I can finally escape from this black abyss that I'm in I know I will never be free to free Lesly from all of the that I've put him through. Damn you Jean the hell that you put Lesly in is unbearable you damn bastard. The only thing that I can now tell you is to learn death before dishonor. So here is the moment of no return will it be death or dishonor cause Lesly is slipping away very fast son. It's interesting that you picked death cause you would rather take care of your self than a sick person in need . Now you can ascend from hell cause you just committed a crime and that wrong doing was helping a friend in need.

Living with no cause







I wake up each morning with only dispair to fill up my day. I wake up each morning wondering why God let me live for so long with a weak heart that is covered with a scar that will never diminsh till I take that long peaceful rest. I wonder why I'm the only one in my family that has to suffer with such a weak muscle, and I'm the only one with no chance to libe at all. Let's face it I see that coffin thay the church made for me everytime I go to sleep.I know what this means I only have a mere few seconds, minutes, and even a few hours to live if I'm lucky. I just hope tat when I leave my family and friends won't feel like my death was of their doing. I lived a good life so farand everyone was bound to see this day coming sooner or later. Well I'm now goin to heaven or hell so atleast ima be safe from the damn danger that this damn world has set for me to fall victim to.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Sucking the life out of me

Damn what a tangled web I've wove.Who knew you could die from sucking your blood. I now know that it's to late for me but now you could just go ahead in your life and suck every inch away.Damn you bastard for letting me inhale that sweet sent. Now you got me hooked on blood. Now don't stop till every drop is out of your damn body, cause I'm on a hunt for some blood that tastes like cherry.Call me crazy but this is the only drink that I love the most. It's like winning the lottery. The best part of this game is that all I nee dis a knife and I've won jackpot. No money is needed only my rich blood on my tongue. Watch me as I take out my pair of fangs and suck my blood dry and laugh as I take every sip of the everlasting juice. If you think Ima stop then you got another thing coming. Cause I want people to see those scars that are on my body like it's an art exhibit. Ha watch those fucking doctors put me into isolation so they can drug me up like a crack addict. I already know its not gonna work cause I'm fuckin immortal bitch. All I need in this hell hole is my switch blade and my arm and my tongue will take care of the juice pouring out. I might be crazy but it's better than being normal. All I need for a friend is a knife and an isolated place cause I know those two things will never hurt me.